Depth

When your illness is in the very deepest part of your core, when you are producing poisonous blood, when you know that this poison lives in you, in the very depth of your bones, your being, that your chromosomes have physically changed, that your DNA is now different than what you were born with, when you have to face it, when you are forced to accept it, when life as you knew it is gone.  That's reality-  accept it, get on with your life, be a big girl, step up to the plate.  There's no running away, no hiding.  How are you going to handle it?  Oh, and by the way, don't forget, you are the lucky one, be thankful.